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Mental health struggles are not signs of spiritual weakness . 

Mental  Illness – Motional distress , trauma, burnout, depression. and Psychotic symptoms. 

Many people in the Bible experienced intense emotional distress

• King David : deep despair, grief 
• Elijah : fear; suicidal ideation after stress
• Jeremiah: loneliness, rejection, defeat 
• King Saul : Tormented by an evil spirit, leading to deep unrest, sorrow, and an inability to sleep, often soothed by David’s music
• Job: devastation , loss
• Jonah: anger , wanting to die 
• Jesus: anguish in gethsemane 
• Martha :  Showed distress and anxiety over household duties while Jesus visited 
• Peter: Experienced deep regret and despair after denying Jesus. 

God wants you to know your not alone
Psalms 34:17-18

The righteous cry out, and the Lord hears them; he delivers them from all their troubles. The Lord is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit.

Lord, I’m not OKay
I’m feeling broken and alone
afraid of losing myself
afraid to fade away
hiding behind my smile
While carrying heavy burdens 
no one understands
Lord, I’m breaking
trying to hold on the best I can
pushing through the day
as I’m slowly dying within
I pretend to be alive
but my mind wonders away
trapped in the what ifs 
of all the pain 
thats trapped in my heart
I hold onto every day
Lord, I need you
I have no one else who can release my fears
wipe my tears
I have nowhere to run to
no one to talk to
Only you can love me unconditionally
that’s why I come to you today Lord
to say
HOLD ME
I’m not OKAY 

I have always been the black sheep 

always been the one everyone treated as a mistake

got treated different 

with no love, no tenderness 

only the harshness of their voices

telling me how I’m a disgrace 

taking joy out of every sin 

I’ve ever made 

always ready to gossip 

out of the trauma pain they caused

I was slowly drifting 

and they were there for the excitement of my failings 

I have always been the black sheep 

being told I was such a disaster

for the choices caused by my mental breakdowns 

coming directly from 

my so called loved ones 

having no laughter, no love

loneliness filled my heart

how can they pretend they want the best 

but distance themselves as if I’m a disease and contagious

how can they say they want me to change 

when they are the ones who caused this pain 

in the first place 

For they are the reason                      
for my mental illness

I’ve always looked to gain acceptance 

realizing I’m just digging myself deeper into a dark grave

Narcissistic people can’t be changed

is that’s why I’m a black sheep 

is that why  I am not like them

because I was chosen to be different

Now I understand my pain

now my tears make sense

I was loosing my way 

loosing myself 

hiding in my own shame

needing a savior to save me from these  people living in vain 

not knowing the whole time I was walking with Jesus the one who was holding me close since the beginning 

the one who formed me and made me his black sheep

he made made me his black sheep to protect me from the enemy taking me. 

I had an encounter with God yesterday and he has told me to let you all know that the food that you have been serving is now expired …..outdated and is no longer widely in use and unfashionable. … and it should not be consumed
You are serving food that is no longer nourishment to the body of Christ. You have been eating and serving expired flows and have been seeing expired information because you have been in a flow that has old boundaries and limits which is causing diving lines between a sacred land, the land promised to you by God. In that land power , self sufficiency and legacy awaits but you’re in a place at this moment of comfort, a place of oppression and it should not be confounded or used for emphasis. This is leading you to complicated directions and is causing confusion and disorder. This place you’re in is a dry place. You must now start to eat fresh food and begin to swim in a fresh river with a fresh flow so you can can again feed my people fresh food.

1 Kings 19:1-4-5

Sometimes God has to put us into a wilderness to regain strength

Elijah’s sin was that he allowed fear to enter his heart and mind. He allowed fear to take place in his life and decision making. Fear became his God and instead of trusting God he doubted . So he allowed fear to bring doubt and once doubt creeped in it caused him to become tired and sleepy because he no longer had a connection with God. 

Isaiah 41:10

So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand. 

Do not be dismayed- discouraged, dishearted, depressed, oppressed, or despaired

being dismayed causes us to break down the courage within

1 kings 13:1:4-5

while he himself went a day’s journey into the wilderness. He came to a broom bush, sat down under it and prayed that he might die. “I have had enough, Lord,” he said. “Take my life; I am no better than my ancestors.” Then he lay down under the bush and fell asleep.

All at once an angel touched him and said, “Get up and eat

Elijah pleaded with God and requested to die

He pleaded no more God ENOUGH I’m not strong enough

Elijah layed and slept over a juniper tree

He layed and slept- His consciousness was practically suspended leaving him paralyzed 

Proverbs 6:9

How long will you lie there, you sluggard? When will you get up from your sleep.

When you sleep body has no movement 

To lie down means to give up to surrender

Elijah forgot to trust God because he became to busy feeling sorry for himself

So if you’re in a place where you need to make a decision trust God that he will be faithful and guide you.  Don’t let discouragement or fear paralyze you into a stagnant place out of God’s will. 

God said to Elijah arise and eat . God was offering him a spiritual food. The Lord Jesus said,“Man shall not live on bread alone, but on every word that proceeds out through the mouth of God” (Matt. 4:4). The words that proceed out of God’s mouth are food for us to eat. God is not just offering us a physical eating but a spiritual receiving of the Word of God as food. 

Acts 16:16-18

And it came to pass, as we went to prayer, a certain damsel possessed with a spirit of divination met us, which brought her masters much gain by soothsaying: The same followed Paul and us, and cried, saying, These men are the servants of the most high God, which shew unto us the way of salvation. And this did she many days. But Paul, being grieved, turned and said to the spirit, I command thee in the name of Jesus Christ to come out of her. And he came out the same hour.

The Greek word for divination is a “ python spirit “ 

Paul spoke to this spirit and charged it out in the name of Jesus Christ . The Bible says that that spirit came out that very hour.  We also read that Paul was grieved . This spirit was causing him great distress. 

Defeat and failure

Sense of suffocation 

Sense of powerlessness 

Sense of limitations and hopelessness 

Fatigue lack of motivation  

This spirit posses a person and through that person the spirit speaks.  The spirit of divination is a snake that attacks the people of God. 

This spirit is associated with the spirit of witchcraft and witchcraft is the sin of rebellion 

1 Samuel 15:23 KJV

For rebellion is as the sin of witchcraft, And stubbornness is as iniquity and idolatry. Because thou hast rejected the word of the LORD, He hath also rejected thee from being king

Rebellion is an attitude displayed to contradict authority. Rebellion is disobedience to God. It is stubbornness and idolatry. This spirit comes to through those who call themselves servants of the lord to bring us religious grievance. These kind of fake Christians only bring grief, uneasiness, oppression and injuries . 

When this happens the believer begins to feel like quitting or walking away from God due to the hurt of the injuries. This spirit attacks Gods people by squeezing the life out of them leaving them breathless. When this happens we become tired and exhausted. These spirit works through religious leadership to whip Gods people into a frenzy or to demoralize them. These kind of religious leaders are deceptive creatures and tricksters who promotes good to what God has forbidden. 

This spirit comes against your spiritual walk with God. It robs you of your desires by bringing stagnation to your call of God.  Its job is to suffocate and silence you from advancing the kingdom of God. This spirit promotes false religion and hates  your prayer life. This spirit afflicts you through depression . These religious people functioning through this python spirit are never submissive. 

Acts 28:3-6 MSG

Paul pitched in and helped. He had gathered up a bundle of sticks, but when he put it on the fire, a venomous snake, roused from its sleepiness by the heat, struck his hand and held on. Seeing the snake hanging from Paul’s hand like that, the natives jumped to the conclusion that he was a murderer getting what he deserved. Paul shook the snake off into the fire like it was nothing. They kept expecting him to drop dead, but when it was obvious he wasn’t going to, they jumped to the conclusion that he was a god!

Pray this prayer for deliverance 

In the name of Jesus Christ I renounce the spirit of divination that is coming up against me . I ask that you Lord forgive me for my rebellion. I command the python , the witchcraft spirit, and the divination spirit to come out of me Now! In Jesus name

I ask you you fill me with your Holy Spirit fire and I ask you Lord that through your Holy Spirit you renew and strengthen me in Jesus name I pray and I thank you for my deliverance 

            Amen

I have a confession to make . I have sinned before the presence of God…. I went around telling others “ God will not give you something you cannot handle “ and it was a lie…….something I heard from pastors and other Christian’s in my life . But that was not the truth or at least God’s truth. That truth belongs to satan himself. See this is just another tactic that satan uses to manipulate us into thinking “ if God doesn’t give us something we can’t handle then why am I praying and nothing is happening. Why isn’t God helping me ?

And in that split moment you have allowed satan to do exactly what he set out to do “ steal your faith “

He tried to convince you that God is not real just like he did to Adam and Eve. He convinced them that God was a liar and they could eat from the tree and for just a split second they turned their faith away from God .

See the truth is God does allow us to go through temptation. He allows us to go through heartaches no one said following God was going to be pain or problem free.

Now through Paul God reminds us that even though we go through trails and tribulations he won’t give us more then we can bear. Because while in the storm he is with us and he also made the promise that he will NEVER leave us nor forsake us.

In 1 Corinthians 10:13 (NIV) Paul does say God “will not let you be tempted beyond what you can bear.

God never said he won’t give us what we cannot handle. He said I will be there to help you carry the weight of the problem when you no longer have the strength to bear.

See when we are weak in our own abilities God therefore can take over and carry our burdens. When we try to carry them ourselves he cannot help us because we don’t make space for him to step in.

So we begin to shout in pain and heart aches “ God where are you “ I can’t handle this anymore. And God is saying I’m here my beloved if you could just let go and let me carry it for you eventually you’ll make it to the end.

Mathew 11 : 28-30

Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy and my burden is light.”

I make so many mistakes
over and over and over again
just when I thought I had overcome
here I go again
reliving the same sin
falling into the lust of the feelings
that come with this burden called mistake

Why is this temptation
so hard for me to let go
why do I loose control
and fall deeper into the dark hole
why do I believe the lies
that fills up my head
with all the devious thoughts
saying you can just repent
and it won’t be a sin
the voice is
overpowering my head
and Here I go again
falling into the temptation
that I once thought I buried away

Is it that satan has a grip of my mind
holding my thoughts hostage
from a past I have yet not overcome
is he wrapped around my neck
whispering things in my ear
purposely having me falling
into this forbidden mistake
he calls good I call dis pair

Though I hold regrets
I can’t get away from this shame
feeling dirty so unclean
Jesus help me
Set me free

And Jesus replied in my distress
I saw Satan fall like lightning from heaven
I have given you authority my child
To trample on snakes and scorpions
You can overcome all the powers of the enemy
I am with you
And Nothing will harm you
if you resist for the moment
And call on my name “ Jesus “
I will rescue you from all temptation
And free you will be
In victory
Amen